To have a to-do list makes us feel well-equipped. Knowing what to do solves most of the problem so that we can go about doing the tasks. In spirituality, we know what we have to accomplish to be peaceful, equipoised, and selfless. But how to go about is where we find ourselves lost, not quite sure about what is to be done in the moment. Sadhana Panchakam (Sadhana: means/practice, Panchakam: set of 5 verses), composed by Adi Sankaracharya ji, details 40 steps as a means/practice to achieve that end goal of happiness.
We (ego/personality layer) feel we’ve studied/worked so hard, or given so much in a relationship and thus we deserve. But we actually do so little, and if the doing doesn’t belong to us, how can the result? Going deeper, the mistake lies in us not understanding that the knowledgeable and enlivening divinity, love, joy, or peace we seek is also within us, untouched by all our controlling and managing. Let go of the sense of doing and the entitlement to a specific result to experience the beauty that exists.
We so often feel and say “I know” passionately because it’s where divinity is reflected in us. Similar to how a mirror just reflects, this thinking faculty (mind and intellect) is a mere reflective surface and not who I am (divinity). But since it shines, it absorbs my attention, which I then identify with and want to be (our personality), not able to distinguish the two. The most beautiful thing, however, is that since the reflection is in our thinking, we know exactly where to look to find divinity.