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There is no escaping trauma. You can’t love trauma away. Today I share some difficult news, and start a new, different chapter in my life, and in my healing ❤️🩹
Some days, some weeks are just shit. But things grow in shit! In this episode I talk about my shitty week in these dark, post sugar over-load days of January. I talk about how honesty, and the willingness to lean in when things get hard is the key to finding the passage out of the dark. ❤️
In this episode I touch base with some new personal thoughts on trauma injury, and discuss where I am at on the path to recovery. 💔🏋️♀️🤕
In this short episode I contemplate my lurking anger towards the “other” woman, even though she is long gone. A psychological ghost that haunts me.
As we enter into the darkest days of the year, and approach the one-year marker of the Rupture in my relationship, I contemplate the deliberate re-visiting I am doing. Maybe it is some awkward shadow-work, maybe I am cleaning out the dark corners, but for whatever reason, I need to go there over and over
After a “big, juicy fight” this week, and a lot of long, sleepless nights, I am finally coming out of the grip that my trauma-wound fear had on me. I am learning to separate fearful thoughts from reality. With that, comes the realization that trust has nothing to do with passive healing and everything to do with being intentional and honest.
In this episode I ruminate on where I am a year after the rupture in my relationship, and get real about how surprised I am at how slow and gross this process can be, EVEN when love comes back…hopefully to stay this time.
Today I try to put my thumb on how it feels to be almost 50 and living a life that has not ended up the way I had planned. I am learning to sit in discomfort and the unknown. Hanging out with my guilt and fear a little…
In this episode I speak about how we need to acknowledge the darkness and our destructive patterns in order to move forward to restoration
Today I share a moment of slide-back. I talk about how the struggle to integrate truth and pain while respecting boundaries is a difficult one. Come walk the slow meandering path to healing with me ❤️
The trauma loop, that is. In this episode I share more on my work to break out of destructive patterns, starting with understanding why I return to the source of my pain.
I have started to deep-dive into my anxious attachment style. I finally admit I am a total scaredy-cat and it’s time to change that. I am (hopefully) at the beginning of a whole new chapter of integration and new communication and relational patterns. Wish me luck! It’s going to be a ride ❤️👌🏻👍🏻
This morning I talk about how there is no magic timeline to healing, and no “right” way to do life ❤️
In this episode I talk about taking others advice and opinions with a grain of salt. You know what’s best for you deep down inside. You can run your own show if you listen to and believe your truth 🌸
Life is like a cluttered garage...sometimes you have to throw the doors open and muck it out ❤️
Today I talk about the physical and mental pain link. No science here, just my feelings ❤️
Today I talk quickly about learning to tell the difference between my trauma playing mind games with me and reality, and express gratitude for the path I am on, even though it it rocky.
I start to touch on the challenges of long distance love, and share a bit about how that feels and how we are slowly learning to overcome the intimidating obstacles in our path to being together ❤️
Today I start breaking open the beginning of a new love story. One with more honesty, deeper compassion. Love that transcends tragedy.
Today I talk through what’s troubling me and realize while I am rambling that a healthy dose of gratitude is what has been missing in my life lately ❤️
Today I talk about the natural slumps we all get in from time to time - just talking my way out of it with you!
Today I talk about loss. About how feeling nothing is not a real thing. At least not in my case. I re-visit an old wound I thought was fixed.
In this episode I talk about prioritizing as a parent and how that requires constant re-assessment and re-alignment...and some slack 💕
A quick episode to reminder us to look up and enjoy the beauty of life while we try to keep the balance ❤️
I talk about how I feel at the final phase of a long split. It took forevah...but we made it.
Today I talk about the time we need to allow ourselves to heal from trauma, and how reality of everyday life and others expectations put pressure on that timeline
Dealing with darkness and anger is part of life, but lately my own struggle with it is really starting to pick my ass. Maybe the worst comes out right before you heal, or maybe I have a boatload of work ahead of me...either way change has to come ❤️
I am thinking out loud in this episode, trying to help myself figure out how to decipher fear vs intuitive messages.
